Okay I am going to be very honest with you, I am totally terrified. I only have 9 more week, give or take a few, before my little boy is here and its exciting yet scary. I just wish natural birth was a little easier. I'm not so much as scared of having my baby boy in my arms as I am about the process. This makes me think, Do I want to have more kids? There are many reasons why I wanted a natural birth. My reasons: Freedom to move around as a please Freedom to give birth in water if I would like to. No pressure into pain meds Support from the people who are helping me deliver The smell of a hospital has never been appealing I didn't want any intervention because of the risks involved More calm setting as opposed to people going in and out the room (the are focused on me and only me) No pressure into fast delivery (giving my body the time it needs) etc I can go on and on about natural birth, but those are just some of the few. Also, I have thought about having a hospital birth without intervention, but knowing me I would be tempted to get drugs and also a lot of people do not have the options like I do. I would rather take a chance at those experiences than not. For the past few weeks I have been scared and its only getting deeper. Hopefully this will pass and I can believe in myself that I can do this.
XOXO Crissy
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